I really don't know what to say, or why I'm bothering to say it. But, I've just been totally flattened as of late. The early months of every year are very high risk months for me, and I recently experienced a very triggering event. I have a tendency to become quite overwhelmed by tragic or sad stories while in these frames of mind. Well, there was quite a tragic story that I heard about in my local news recently, where someone died in a freak accident. Somehow I got drawn into all the details of this person's life and death, through Facebook, etc. Now I literally feel like someone I knew has just died, even though I didn't know them. I'm just devastated, completely lost and questioning everything. It's the saddest I've felt in a long time.
I want to take it out on something.... I feel like I just want to sell all of my stuff, quit using this hobby as the crutch that I use it for. Take the money and do something fulfilling with my life, maybe fix my broken mind somehow. I can't think about games, nothing seems to have a point right now. I'm just taken completely apart.
I know this is not the appropriate place to be venting off all of my personal issues, and I really do hate to subject you guys to my stupid drama. I realize that none of you are the shrink that I obviously need to see. But sometimes, it just need to say it and I don't exactly have many outlets to do that. I'm not going to say that you'll be seeing less of me around here, I have no idea really. But in case I do start to make myself scarce, you should have an idea as to why.