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Off Topic / Re: How do you deal with getting older?
« on: October 27, 2025, 12:09:13 pm »All the garbage going on in the world, the politics, the economic system, the unending drama and noise coming from social media that I’m supposed to care about or get sucked into. I don’t want to be a part of it any longer. For the most part, I’m dead to that world. It feels like a waste of my time on this Earth, and everything about the present day system feels designed to make me feel less human and I want none of it. I desperately wanna recapture the way I felt when I was young, or at least how I felt as a young adult.
I know how you feel. For nearly the entire time I've been active on here I had actually withdrawn from society for the most part. I was "so over" all the BS. But I had found that I was missing something but I didn't know what that was. I can't tell you how I got over it exactly, because it involved a trigger that I was not expecting to occur. I don't know if a person can actually escape that type of situation willingly because for a very long time I didn't think there was a problem. After the trigger event occured, my spirits lifted considerably and I did not know what had happened. I went into a period of introspection to figure things out and found that I had been experiencing some form of depression for a long time. After I came to accept things, I re-integrated with the world including all of the drama, of which I am still involved with even today. But I think it is a cost worth paying.
The things that ended up changing for me:
- I stopped paying attention to the news, politics or things like that. This is partly because I stopped doom scrolling on X and now rarely use it.
- I started focusing on music again and listening to new things. As a result, I stopped listening to the radio so this relates to being out of the loop regarding news. The type of music I listen to has regressed a little but I found that my music choices are dependent on a couple of things, my overall emotional state and also the music scene.
- I stopped playing video games, with exception. I'm still playing the two games in my Currently Playing list, but I haven't played anything in my backlog since early June. This happened immediately after the trigger event. I tried to play a game about a month ago and found I didn't want to.
- I started going to see bands again after a long time. This partially effected the type of music I was listening too somewhat recently.
- I started being more sociable in public which also came with the penalty of being involved in drama.
I won't go into details but I had to come to grips with a mistake I made in my past that led me to becoming a recluse. Once I became at peace with my past, the rest of the world opened up for me. That included some of the things that I had tried to escape from, but as I said I think that cost is worth it. I'd rather be the person I am today than the one I was a year ago. Nothing is easy in life and it is complicated and confusing a lot of the time. You'll end up making mistakes and having to deal with the consequences, but it is better than just hiding away because in that state you can't learn and grow IMO.